January 2009
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today was good. i stressed a little but whatever. idc anymore. tomorrow im going to the basketball game @ chavez. ima see if deanna won the princess thing. :D we’re most likely gonna get some coffee. but money is lowwwwwww. im saving up for my trip to mexico this summer. im staying there again :] this time with my favorite aunt. a.s gave me some money. im angry with him for doing so. i shall...
Now when i caught myself;
I had to stop myself. from saying something that i should have never thought.
what do you do, when you’re caught between two things you care about? i dont wanna be in the middle anymore.
i ‘m sorry :[ i should have never said the things i said. i hope you can understand that when i am angry, i have the tendancy to talk out my butt. please oh pleaseeee understand! because for the...
let's escape this two-faced town;
together, you and i, hand in hand, we are one. and we can make it through thick and thin. Caring is the most powerful thing in the world. and love, my darling, is the greatest obstacle in life.
-me.
its 4:12 in the morning,
and i am in Indio,CA.
im in the van.
pretty comfortable. but nothing beats a bed.
im soooooooooooooooo excited to finally be going back to mexico.
i really...
Shut up & Put Your Money Where Your Mouth Is;
Dear tumblr,
i am blogging from my new phone. i just wrote this long blog that took me abt twenty minutes to find that it did not get posted. all that got posted was the title. i am very upset. although its not ur fault, i have to post something so i wont look dumber than i feel. next time, im emailing this post.
yours truly,
missyy.
ps,
blogging frm...
“You Are Every Reason, Every Hope And Every Dream I’ve Ever Had, And No...”
– Noah (The Notebook)
Fist in the air;
i’m not going down without a fight.
i am SICK and TIRED. They’re son is gone away but its still as if he was here. This is never going to be the same. The wounds from last year are still fresh. I’m picking at the scars from the past. i’m never getting this feeling of misery, and helplessness and loneliness away from me. Things will never be the same. For the first time in...
& With Every Mistake You Re-Make;
You just get dumber & dumber. I’ve always felt like everyone looked at me as if i were dumb because i’ve always made mistakes. As i got older the feeling faded into Pride. Only because i knew that i am human and humans weren’t made to be perfect. Also, because i knew that there were reasons for committing those mistakes. They were for learning from them. Now.. i’m not...
You're not a man, You're just a mannequin;
I wish you could feel That my love is real ….. I’m afraid wishing is all i have left. the only thing keeping me attached to these strange feelings. I’m endangering myself by being around you. I wish that things could be as simple as you make them seem. I wish i knew how to tell you my feelings. But I’m afraid wishing is all i have left..
But there's still tomorrow;
Forget the sorrow, and i can be on the last train home. Home? I can’t really find the definition of Home anymore. They say a home is a place where you run to, To only forget about your problems. In my case. I’m living in a House. Because i always run away from “Home” If anything, my “Home” is in mexico. With my grandparents. Because i know that they will never...
How did we get here?;
i used to know you so well.. please learn from your mistakes. “One man’s (or in this case immature good for nothing little boy’s) trash Is another MAN’S treasure.” Which makes me wonder. Do guys have magical powers that were made for good, but instead they use it to ALLURE us gals? Do they take advantage of that special power? Is God testing them like he did with Job?...
Have You Ever Thought Just Maybe?;
You belong with mee. Sunday, i went to borders to use up my giftcard. I bought two more Nicholas Sparks Books. Now i’m planning on going to Barnes N Nobles. So i can get my other two Sarah Dessen Books. Yee. I went to Costco today, i bought two more books. Hahahaha :D I did the mistake of telling A.S now he wont stop calling me a nerd. i dont mind … yet. I also went to starbucks. This...
You Tell Me That You Love Me;
then cut me down.
Went to Bj’s with Julema & four other guys. we were the only two girls there. since everyone else flaked. we srsly waited for a table for 2 hours. and our feet were numb. D: oh well it was worth the wait. after that we went back to her place around 10 and played some Loteria!! yeeee haha then i came home around 11 ish. im uberrr tired. Night. happy new year.